Hey Girl Hey.

I haven't legit blogged in awhile, so might as well.
I've been too busy/lazy to blog and my life has been hectic. I just dropped one of my classes because I'm planning on doing a lot of extra curricular stuff and finding a job this semester. You know your girl is keeping it ila than usual on the daily. So life has been crazy ridic. I've been in and out of malls (trying to find a job!), meetings, and classes.

Things to look forward to for myself:
-PCN. please oh please let me be casted. (I really want to do Pilipino Cultural Night as you can tell. like ridicridonc want to do it.)
-Internship. I love the L.I.F.T.E.D. internship.
-English 1B (because my view in class isn't half bad.)
-Math70 cause i just love math that much.
-Getting another job. (please call me back urban decay!)

I'm back in San Jo, and I love it per usual. I just need to readjust in all my new classes and face the fact that I don't know anyone yet. I'm being nicer than usual, cause you know how I do. I hella chop it up with people I don't know. And the guy next to me in my history class was hella sneezing so I gave him my pack of puff tissues. I don't share any classes with people I know, but its just a way to meet new people! OH and all my professors frown upon cell phone and laptop usage. So it feel likes i'm back in high school! ughhhh.
Ok, that's it for now. As for the roommate sitch, let's just say that me and lauren are good to go. Our other roommate on the other hand needs to figure out where she's living. HAH.
Peace, Love, and All of the Above.
Angie.

Kisses never lie.

My ILAs just saved me from a potential emo-ass last week of break. Currently, I'm going through relationship problems. But true love never fails so I'm putting my trust in God & him & we'll see where this goes. From Millbrae Pancake House to Mercy. From huge ass Valleyfair mall to The Clique & Sex&theCity. To relationship talks with L & talking shit with A. From sitting in a Sex & Gender Roles class to yelling at the TV while watching Tool Academy. (Team Matsuflex!) From Jo Koy videos to causing ruckus with E. From teal hair to tats. From crepes&starbucks to Happy Birthday Nala! Then home again. I <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Forever 21 moms. Just saying.

Keepin' it cute.

<3 Ingrid

ila sisstuhs sleepover in sj!

the ila sisstuhs had a sleepover in sj this week! you know we always come in full effect so you know it was poppin'. love always the ila girls.

Sisters for a Reason

I've been in this relationship that you can call a waste of time/shitty. Reason being is because I am never happy with my life with him. I've given up so much for him that he doesnt see the real Lauren Nicole. All he ever sees is negative things. He looks at me or calls me and thinks/says hella negative shiz to me. For almost 2 years, I've gone through the roughest relationship any female would go through. From fights that turn into bruises and cuts to names a female should NEVER be called. The first time a fight broke out like that, I couldn't believe my virgin ears that this person I say "iloveyou" to is saying all these things that breaks a girl down. I thought it was just a phase for him, but it got worse as our days together prolonged. One time, he even got mad at me coz I got a call from a guy that I go to school with and he ended up breaking his hand b'coz he punched my dresser. Fool tried to let his anger out by breaking his hand, what a dummy. Anyways, things are hella rough for me because of school starting and my daddy being in the hospital and to top off the sundae I have the most jerk tool of tool academy as a boyfriend. He's a bigger jerk/asshole than Shawn of T.A. Geez, can you get any more worse than that? [and the guy had two girlfriends, but my tool is the biggest of all] 2 years, and I'm getting fed up from all the shiz hes put me through and is continuing to put me through. He says he's like this because he cant help being selfish when it comes to me. "I told you that I'm selfish when it comes to Lauren Nicole. I cant help but want you to myself." That means, 1) I cant have any friends besides him. 2) He gets mad at me whenever we're apart and at school. 3) He hates when he hears male names come out of my mouth [even if they are a gay friend that he's met] 4) He yells at me or gets angry with me when/if I go out to dinner/meetings/hang outs. 5) I get in trouble if theres other voices in the background when we're talking on the phone. and so on. Now, can you see what I've been going through. I've been living in hell and I've even put up with it. All the ILoveYous never felt real because after those words, something triggers his bi-polar disorder and I'm crying and he doesnt want me to stop coz he keeps making me cry.
My dad's just gone through a BMT and that's hard enough for me to go through, on top of that, school started which makes my life a little harder because I'm more concerned for my fa asmily at this point. My ILA sissuh has been going through some relationship things, so I'm kinda concerned for her too, and we're both supporting each other with our relationships, but my relationship is the worst out of the two, so advise is try to make him relize that youre forreal about him needing to change. I really wanna leave and try to make him miss me and regret treating me like shiz for the past 2 years so I have to leave. All the things hes given me such as my heart shaped three diamond studded gold band ring that I got for my birthday. All the good memories will always be held close to my heart because I feel like hes is the one person I've ever dated that I've felt so many feelings for. Idk how I'm going to be able to deal with it tho..Im keeping my sissuhs close to me coz theyre my cruch for a lifetime.

<3LaurenNicole.

Papa's Transplant x NonVirgin

As of January 21st, my dad has gotten his BMT, bone marrow transplant. When I called him, he sounded better than usual. Hes doing well, but things are still trying to get back into place. His energy level is still low as is his blood count, but only time will tell if the BMT went as planned. Thank God that his own sister was his donor, we are very thankful for that. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts toward my father and his condition.
As of January 22nd, my hair is no longer a virgin =[. First I cut off 10 inches to donate to the Lock of Love Foundation because of my father's condition. Now, my hair is dyed turquoise-ish, but only a thin layer of my hair.

<3LaurenNicole.

Team Blair

Hey guys! I bet no one even remembers me 'cause I barely blog. Whatevs, I've actually been busy! So to catch up... 1. I've dyed my hair. :] 2. I watched the first season of Gossip Girl in 2 days & refused to leave my couch. 3. Ange's 90 yrs old so we celebrated bigtime. 4. I'm partaking in a game that I don't even wanna be apart of. But I play for keeps. 5. I've been out & sleep over in SF almost every week. 6. My brother's mantillion is tomorrow so this week has been hell week. Practices, shirt making, shit talking -- oh what? Haha

Mantillion: (n.) similar to a debutante ball or cotillion but for the opposite sex; crackin'

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm excited for Confessions of a Shopaholic!

Fieeerccee!

Prayers to L & her family! Love you sissy.

<3ingrid

Papa's Hospitalized

So my father has been diagnosed with 2 types of cancer since the summer, and he's going into the hospital tomorrow for a BoneMarrowTransplant. I've held all my tears in until now. As the summer progressed and so did his chemotherapy treatments, I wanted to move out of the house so freakin badly because I couldn't stand the stress in the house. I left the house just before school started, and soon enough I got closer to my father than any of us kids. I used to fight non-stop with my dad, but now it's just trying to keep the peace in the family. My family has gone through so much with this illness that I feel like we've grown stronger as a whole and our bond cannot be broken with the high spirits we have now. In the beginning, it was hard to understand what my father was going through, but now I think we understand just a little bit now. As I attend college at SJSU, I spoke with my father more and more each day until I came home to my family in Millbrae. Before his diagnosis, I tended to bump heads with my father because we are both very stubborn, but after I found out about what he has, I learned how to talk things out and try to mend tears in our family. Now, I'm like the mediator in the family, its ridonc!
Its Wednesday and my father is getting admitted to Stanford Hospital tomorrow morning at 9 AM. Since Sunday, I've been crying about the whole thing because of what's going to happen with my family. Saturnday and Sunday, my father got to see all his closest friends and family, for the last time because he cant be around people for around a year due to the healing process after his BMT. Sunday, he got annointed with healing oil that "they used in Jesus' time to heal the sick". My mom and I started to cry as the priest did the annointing, but that's just females being females =P Tuesday, I was with Babe, and I started crying out of nowhere and he was wondering why I started crying in the first place. I told him what I was feeling and he kept reassuring me that this is for the best, but I felt like some of this was my fault. Of course I shouldnt be feeling this but I do. Idk why, its hard to explain. I've been wanting to cry like this for a long time, but I never found the right time to let it all out. After I finally let it all out, I felt some kind of relief that my father is going to be fine after the transplant. I'm glad that he was lucky enough to spend the holidays with his family and people close to him. I'm just scared, he's nervous, but I'm scared because I never would've thought that my family would go through something that's a lifetime.
I want to thank everyone that is keeping my father in his prayers for a full recovery. God, please watch over my father as he fights this battle against life itself. He needs your guidance and healing power.
<3LaurenNicole.

give us a show, pleasey!

just do it! 'nuff said.

birthdays, photoshop, &mantillys. OH MY!

two days ago (well three technically) was my birthday! and i would just like to say how thankful i am for my ila sisstuhs for surprising me in the morning and basically spoiling me all day. i loved every second of my birthday and i owe you guys HELLA! okay anyways, i'll write about my birthday when i have my pics uploaded.
life is so good right now! it's a relief from school and all. i still take care of my bidness and find myself busy. but at least i have time to chill with everyone and anyone. i lovess it! i've been working on a lot of designs, both for the mantilly and my line. shit's gonna be poppin' that's all i know for sure.
I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS COMING WEEK. mantilly here we go!
Peace, Love, and Mantilly Shizz.
Angie.

Frescas X West Portal

So my daddy wanted to go to a Peruvian place for dinner tonight since he's not going to be able to have these kinds of foods after his BMT (bone marrow transplant). We ended up going to Frescas. West Portal doesn't really bring back great memories since the only memories there are of one person who's name I shant mention.
In the times I went to Mercy, I had a little love with someone. He took me to Frescas on our first "date". We had a great time, but our time soon deminished. Frescas was really the best memory with him coz it was the sweetest memory, all the other ones were just drama, tears and nerves. As I was sitting at the dinner table with my family, I remembered our date, and it was hard to bring back to my mind coz everything about him made me scared for my life. I ordered the prawn sandwich and he ordered some kinda steak, fckn fat ass. He was sweet enough to take his time with me even if he was just on a 30 minute break. He told me it dont matter coz he just wanted to be with me. Our date was cut short coz he had work and I had practice. FCK man, memories really do make you think. Anywayys, I was scared that I'd see him again, there. I was afraid of someone that knew who I was appearing out of nowhere and telling him that I was there. I was just afraid, period. Frescas and West Portal alone makes me scared coz I know that hes there. Fck, hes everywhere!. Dinner happened to be a good one, although I was scared.
Okay, THEE END.

<3LaurenNicole.

yesterday was the 50th post! wooo!

oh yeah another random fact, because i just woke up and my back hurts:

20. I currently sleep in the living room of my house because 1. i'm deconstructing/updating my room so it doesn't look like i'm 12 anymore and 2. because i don't have a tv in my room anymore so i settled for the flatscreen in the living room.

i woke with a backache because the couch is being a BIOTCH. k back to sleep.

Peace, Love, and less than 10 hours till my birthday!
Angie.

because i'm too nice!

Hi! 2009 has proven to be just peachy so far! and it's only been 5days! =] i got a longboard today. they don't sell the padang anymore...so i got the sector 9 cosmic weave longboard! yes...i am happy! that sounds materialistic of me...sorry. let's bring it back, i've been meaning to post a random facts blog. for one thing, because i feel bad when i do it on facebook cause then i would have to tag people. and b. because i have a lot of random facts about me. sound cool? then let's do it!
1. i really like my full first name (Angelou) but it's weird when someone besides my family says it out loud. b/c really everyone just calls me Ang, or Angie.
2. i've been telling people that i'm a REALLY GOOD liar. but i just found out recently that means i'm a good actress. so uhh, i should stop saying that right? yeah? yeah.
3. i love...love, but i've never been in love. i love the concept/symbolism/emotion/word! love can be concrete or an idea. it's just a big question mark that is self defined.
4. my nail broke today and i was ready to shank someone! haha, no really. i've been trying to grow out my nails for the past couple of months or so.
5. i think i have a mild form of A.D.D. only because i have a hard time focusing on one task.
6. i've been craving froyo even though it's crazy freezing outside.
7. i dyed my hair last week. the bottle says it's supposed to be purple, but my hair turned blue. like SUPERMAN blue.
8. i have no eyebrows. well i have small/thin eyebrows. but it sometimes looks like i have none at all.
9. i'm the tannest in my family. like my WHOLE extended family. you would think i was adopted or something. hah.
10. i really like san jose, i'm kinda surprised. i've always been an sfc girl.
11. currently, this is the shortest my hair has been.
12. my room is a mess, and idk when that'll changed. haha.
13. i love surprises, only because i'm nosy and think no one can actually surprise me.
14. i've been at my job currently for almost three years! and for some reason i'm having a hard time finding a job closer to school.
15. i always keep my bart ticket in my back right pocket. otherwise there's never anything in that pocket. it must be there for a reason right?
16. i talk shit, but i pull knowledge out of my ass. somehow my lines were crossed internally.
17. i'm excited/ready for my next tattoo. it's gonna be AMAZING!
18. i made a bandana out of felt yesterday at work! =]
19. 19? OH YEAH i'm turning 19 in two days!

that's it for now. i love 2009 so far...&i'm ready for wednesday! i love my ila sisstuhs, and i can't wait to see em soon!
Peace, Love, and Hello Kitty Earmuffs.
Angie.

just cause

playing with my new tablet (it's name is sofa king) and my new black macbook (it's name is houndstooth) = loveee!
AHH, i love playing with my new toys. keep it ila than y'average in 2009 homies!
peace, love, and all of the above.
Angie.