dead blog.

d.o.a.
june 2009.

chains

forreal, i dont like how im so chained up even if im 18. freakin, i've been home for almost a week and i havent asked or hinted i wanted to go chill with friends or just go out. apparently i have to still ask for permission to go out, and on top of that i get the "you better be with so and so" speech along with the permission. fckn, really? im in college now and i go out all the time. ooh lets compare to the young bruh shall we? while im asking, my bruh is walking out the door saying "be back later" parents dont even ask who hes going to be with, just say "okay" woww! forreal? ugh, i really hate how i have the chains, and i live away from home. dont get me wrong, i love being home, i just hate the chains when they arent necessary. basically, i wanna go back to san jose and come home just for the day sometimes. hella sad ikno, but c'mon who needs to ask for permission to go out and get the speech at the same time; just say "who you goina be with..okay" thas it?! ughh. okay done

<3L

SummerTime in SanJo

So, summer has begun and it started off oh so sweetly. New upgraded apartment with Sissuh Ange, Mel, Bree and Cryil make it all worth the wait. I can't express how greatful to have found such great friends at SJSU. The past school year has definately been the biggest Hawaiian roller coaster ride but it was fun to ride it.

Fall08: Akbayan family. New friends
Spring09: PCN was the experience of a life-time. I actually conquered my fear of the stage and sung in front of hundreds of people && my family. Althought from the very beginning, one person didn't support me to the fullest, I proved that person I am capable of doing what I set my mind to. I had a blast at PCN and met soo many great people.
Moving into the Colonades is soo exciting! New roomies too :)
Summer09: new boyfriend as of M2four9: JTLetuli. My very own Crazy Polynesian. More to come as summer gets more crackin every day :)

<3LaurenNicole

done.

i'm done with my freshmen year of college. very bittersweet. right now i'm running on 0 hours of sleep...let's move passed that.

"chivalry isn't dead, it's just in a coma."

being chivalrous was never overrated. whoever said that decided to give up. and there's nothing worse than someone who gives up. work to love yourself so you can love others.

just live your life,
angie.

finals, yuck.

sorry. it's finals. if you came here looking for more well here it is. it's a beautiful day in san jose, ca and i wouldn't have it any other way.

"prayers go up, blessings come down."

realize your own miracles. don't rely on nature to create something that isn't there. create your own fate and realize your own miracles! truth truth truh.
stay strong during finals everyone! the school year is winding down.

what keeps me going,
angie.

day 4.

yes, i found myself dooubting my new outlook last night. sometime's things are easier said than done. but honestly, without doubt...life's always gonna be good you just need to open your eyes to it. so here comes another one:

"Life's good. Everyone just overreacts."

or overanalyzes life. this is from a postsecret postcard that i use as the wallpaper of my phone. it's a constant reminder that life is good! life will always be good, we're the ones that make it less than what it is. love your life...because you only live it once.

just live your life,
angie.

round 3, fight. lmao.

so day 3. here we go here we go.

"why do we work overtime looking for that someone? and when we find that special someone then the love turns part-time"

yeah, so i found this on my friend's facebook and i just needed to share that. idk if it's from a song or book or whatever. it's the truth. why should we focus our efforts towards our goal and when we reach the goal we settle? shouldn't we continue in hopes to better ourselves?

so why am i doing all of this? cause honestly...when life gets you down and you need that motivation to stay positive it's hard to find the right thing to say right? this is a written, digital form of the way i feel now and the way i motivate myself to feel in the future. life's good ya'll we just need to see it and appreciate it.

just live your life,
angie.

day 2

"life's a beautiful struggle."

-nothing can be more true than this statement. take the bad with the good and don't look back. without the struggle, hardship, sweat, and tears life wouldn't be worthwhile.

just live your life,
angie.

100 days of Life Lessons.

starting today 5/13/09 at 1:11AM, I Angelou will post a life lesson a day. A way for me to pay homage to the life lessons we often overlook but neeed in our everyday lives. Whether it pertains to me, a situation, past, or others in my life...i'm sure everyone can relate. So today...

"Love and respect yourself so you can love and respect others."

never treat yourself less than what you are. everyone is a legend in their own right so act like it.

just live your life,
angie.

hiatus.

we don't know for how long.
-a

M.I.A.

i'm busy.
i won't have alife for the next three weeks.
i quit my job.
i need a vacation.
save me from myself.
that's meant in the most non-emo way.
kthanks,
angie.

To Tattoo or Not to Tattoo?

Out of the ILA sissies, I'm definitely the mom. The one who'll hold your hair back, make sure you eat, tell you to think twice before doing something. That's just me! But for awhile now I've been fighting over whether or not to get a tat. Ange has two, one on her foot & one on her finger. And if she's taught me anything it's that if I ever get anything, the tattoo should mean something. Because I'm gna have it FOREVER.

Ever since I've seen Rihanna's shoulder tattoo it hit me that that's the only place I'd ever want a tattoo. It's understated, a double-taker.

And did you know that Heidi Klum has one as well? Bet you didn't know! "My tattoo says 'Seal' and has three stars for each of our children. The brown ink exactly matches Seal's skin. I'm not afraid of forever."



So why should I be?!

Jet-setta!

Currently I'm sick 'cause I've been so out & about. Just two weeks ago was Barrio hell week. Then two shows Friday & Saturday night - where L&A watched me perform :]Then the last week was incredibly pointless & everyone in Barrio got sick - including me! Saturday was the Hyphen cover shoot with my Tito Aris (Winner of Mr. Hyphen '08), Lola Mommy, & Lola Mamang - my 104 year old diva great grandmother. We posed on a vespa & how it was shot made it seem like we were all packed onto it. You know us Asians, always trying to fit people onto on thing or place. :] It was super fun but I'm afraid my five-head was exposed 'cause of the fan which simulated "wind". Then that night I flew off to Vegas! I got super sick in Vegas, I think I was delirious. Alls I remember was eating clam chowder, a Shirley Temple, then taking Tylenol. Haha! Now I'm back getting ready for the epic trip - ILA IN LA! They ain't ready for us!

<33 Ing

Weekend Hi-light

My little sister had a basketball game at CYO Serramonte Del Rey today playing against OLM. I met this one guy at the same gym and same opponent, his sister's team, a year before. (shit its been a year) anyway, I found out my sister was playing OLM and immediately hit up our mutual friends tryna find out if he was going to be there. I was scared out of my mind driving there tryna figure out an escape route if he tried doing anything to me. See, we have a bad past. I was tryna get with his friend; got close to his girlfriend; and then he threatened me when he found out I was coo with his girl. Things just went sour. Months pass by and I havent spoken to him since he threatened me and I never would've fathomed that he would be at the same game as me. I been wanting to mend peace with him, since he is a Marine serving our country and you'd think he'd wanna be peaceful. But, na he dont wanna. I'm coo with whatever just as long as I'm alive.
I walk into the gym and the first person I see, yup you guessed it, is HIM. omg my heart just dropped from there. I was so fckn terrified for my life. I hit up my homeboys tellin them he was there and they reassured me that he wouldnt do anything coz hes na gna make anything public. During the game, I tried stayin calm, but my nerves kept the best of me. I kept talkina my homeboys with them tryna calm me down; for the most part that worked. The game went about 40 minutes long and the whole time his little fckn sister kept doggin me like I was the enemy. Every time she came to take out the ball, I get the eye, and then I look in his direction and see him givin me the eye. I'm like "this ngg really trained his little sister to do that to me and she dont know me?!" but that was whatever coz Knights killed the Bulldogs today 10-1 nagg! lol. anyway, the game was over and I was tryna cut as quick as possible but my sister being the slow one she is took her sweet time. Soon as I know it, I dont see him anywhere; he really just cut hella quick. I was glad that he had left and that I was alive coz real talk, i was scared for my freakin life. I had sent "im sorrys" and "iloveyous" and "thank yous" to all my friends that I wanted to talk to. I really thought I was about to die! lmao. but I'm safe now, and I'm happy. okay thats the hi-light before I go to LA/Disneyland! yayy
ILA Sissuhs in Disneyland for Spring Break bro!

<3LaurenNicole.

Excited

So our FIRST College Spring Break is here! yayy. ILA Sissys are going to rip up Disneyland with our Fierce selves; March 25-28th. I am hella excited: one, its our first spring break together as ILA sissys; two, I'm away from the hectic life and relaxing with the best friends a female could have; three, ITS DISNEYLAND!

I'm hella sprung. Yes, the <3 kind of sprung. Yes, the guy sprung. Yes, i hella like him. Yes, its early, but I have hopes. No, I'm not going to name him because I found out that blasting names- for me at least- isn't the best idea because it brings me bad luck. Nuff said.

ILA in Disneyland!!!

<3LaurenNicole.

Make My Day.

I've been wanting to do this one, but I feel rude when I tag people to do it so I posted it here. The results are kinda funny:

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Anti-Matter - N.E.R.D.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Chasing Pavements - Adele. (uhm, hella true.)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kick, Push - Lupe Fiasco. (again, hella true.)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Flashing Lights - Kanye West.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE??
See You Again - Miley Cyrus. (don't make fun of me, it's catchy!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Set Me Free - John Legend. (HAH!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Why Does She Stay? - Ne-yo. (OH NO! haha.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Lie to Me - Ne-yo.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Break My Heart - Common.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Gold Watch - Lupe Fiasco. (lauren loves gold; and inga has a gold watch! haha.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Glory - Kanye West.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
With You - Chris Brown. (that's cute...i guess.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It Might Be You - Kai

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sex 4 Suga - Common (HAHAHAH!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Queen and I - Gym Class Heroes. (uh, I hope not.)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Take You There - Musiq Soulchild.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Only Human - Jason Mraz. (good one.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Everybody Knows - John Legend.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I Love, You Love - John Legend.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Coyotes- Jason Mraz. (OH NO!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Big Branch - M.I.A. (hahaha.)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Stronger - Kanye West.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Life and Debt - Blue Scholars (OH NO!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Cupid's Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Teach Me - Musiq Soulchild.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Laugh About It - N.E.R.D.

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Black Mags - The Cool Kids.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The Light - Common.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Yeah You - N.E.R.D.

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Evening Chai - Blue Scholars.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Make My Day - Common.

Things to look foward to: USF Barrio Fiesta tonight. Inga's dancing!; Spring Break; First run through on Sunday; HVYRSNL interview; and lifeeee. duh.
Things I love (currently): Chicken katsu; Coffee runs after class; Inspiration, always.; Ballistic dancing; and lifee!

Peace, Love, and Bruised Knees.
Ange.

ILA + Disneyland = !!!

March 25-28th
It's gonna be epic

<3 ILA

love, love, love.

this one goes out to sisstuh ingrid, cause we all know if she could she would live in the 50s where rock&roll was king, and everyone got down at the local sock hop. this site reminds me of those sites we used to go to in 5th grade and make electronic paper dolls that were little thugettes with baggy pants and tube tops. this one is so much better and its divided in ERAS! ahh, lovely! you're never too old to play with paper dolls. how do you think young aspiring fashion designers got their start? paper dolls and barbies duh. love, love, love!
peace, love, and era-fabulous paper dolls.
ange.

Life Update =)

So uh, since I'm like never on this anymore I thought I should do an update about muah =)
So currently, I'm involved in SJSU's PCN this year. woot woot. Singing in choir, which is really odd since I'm like the shyest of the bunch. I really am tho. Like, I don't just bust out singing for you like people want me to. Sorry. Uh, things in life are really hard for me with family (papa's condition), school/PCN, boys. ew, ugh. that makes me sad.

Fam-lay

I love my family to death, but sometimes I need to get away and I feel like my friends are my getaway trip. Things around the house are so tough for me to man up about. My dad is home, went home just weeks after his transplant and for that I am very thankful because he needed to be home. I saw him twice when he was in the hospital and both times I could not bear seeing him like that. Going home is the best feeling in the world 'coz I know that my dad misses me being home every day like I was in hs. Its hard on me, especially, because I am not used to seeing my dad everyday like the rest of my family. I start crying inside whenever I look at my dad because he's not the dad I remember. He looks so much more different from when he started all his treatment. ='( I seriously cannot look at him in the eye anymore because its too hard on my heart. I know that its bad saying that but that's how I feel inside. When I'm done talking to my dad, I go into another room or outside the house and start crying. Its really that tough for me to handle. When I cry, the only person that knows and hears my tears and sniffles is Jed. Hes my life when I'm down because he knows how to make me smile and think differently. There has been a handful of times that I felt like I was going to burst out in tears in front of my dad, but I had to suck it up and wait for our conversation to end. I really do cry tho. My mom doesnt even know that I'm crying about this. I usually try to stop crying, but sometimes I wish that G didnt put my family through all this sh*t. I know that it's not good putting all this shizz on my shoulders but I feel like since Im away from the family at school, I have the most responsibility. I shouldn't feel like that but I do. Enough of that, I'm starting to tear.

School/PCN

Holy shizz, school is so tough this semester because I have so much pressure from the CSU system to pass all these remedial courses =/ I have the most amazing schedule coz I made it like that. haha. PCN is so much fun. I love the people in it. Althought it drives me craaazy that I cannot speak tagalog at all, I suck it up and sing the songs in tagalog. Most of them songs are in our native language, and the only song I can actually get down is Sha La La. lmao.

Boys aka Jed

The one person who makes me crazy also makes me happy. There are so many times that I've talked about this guy, but a break up isnt going to stop me. Hes been there for me through thick and thin, and he really doesn't want to just be friends. I dont know how many times I stress that I want to be with him but only when he's changed his way of thinking about me. I know that he wants to be with me but the way he thinks of me and treats me does not show what so ever that he wants to be with me coz its all wrong. Im not going to go into detail about that. Theres just so much that I ask of him that I know for a fact that he can do, but he refuses to take my words to heart. Yes, I'm still keeping in touch with him, and we see eachother from time to time, but I dont intend on being his gf until he proves to me that he's changed. There are things that tell me he's "changing" but then those things just go away and the tables turn completely. Recently, we spent a weekend together and it was amazing. Everything was perfect until he left, and he always leaves me on a sour note "because he hates saying goodbye to me because he 'knows' its the last time hes going to see me in 'awhile'". I'm currently just friends with the guy, but I am still interested in staying single.

Okayy, that's an update. Love you, ILA sissuhs.

<3LaurenNicole.

i'm excited...

...for life. does that make sense? i'm excited for life in general. i'm 19, i'm just starting! there's so many things to look forward to. and the simple things in life have been keeping me happy. i honestly want to work on myself as a person this year and better myself as a person, friend, whatever to prepare me for whatever in the future. i don't know where i want to go or what i want to do in life. which is weird, because i thought i always did, but i don't. i love trying different things and immersing myself in everything. i wanna travel the world, fly to different lands, say i've done it all now i gotta teach it all. i know everyone feels me on this. i mean, growing up is so much fun. just enjoy it! when people tell me "oh you're so young, don't waste it!" i'm like "damn straight, i'm not planning on it!" or when people say "oh you're getting old!" well guess what, "i still have some growing to do!" sorry i just needed to rant. LIFE IS GOOD. you just need to realize that it's good. don't reflect on the negative; no drama; dispose of bad vibes. and you're good to go! it's just good advice for everybody to live by. i need to get in touch with my inner philospher every now and then.
peace, love, and positive thinking.
ange.

MISSBEHAVEMAG!

your homegirl is on missbehave! what's up with that? all that good stuff is whatsup! the second posting on this blog inspired me to submit. yeeeeee! i'm hella happy right now. nothing can phase me, even though this week has been poo. linkage anyone? ILLEST NAILS or rather ILA NAILS!
that's all. life's good, it could be better. i've been writing more and more lately. because i guess situations have been inspiring me to do so. LENT started yesterday (technically two because it's 12:02 right now) and it's been hard. i gave up a lot, but i know it'll help me be a better person altogether. more than that, i need to focus on just being a good person, sister, daughter, friend. everything. work on myself before i help others. i also need to stop spending money. it's all bad. life's been hectic. five practices in four days. soon to be five practices in three days. and school and work on top of all of that. also i'm really interested in this internship, and you know me. ambitious and all! =]
peace, love, and safe trips home.
Ange.

Dreamy...

Was I born in the wrong era? I'm currently living in a place where chivalry is dead & if a guy just doesn't seem that into you then no, he really isn't that into you! This generation of tattooed rappers & cut out bikinis. Nothing's wrong with this era but I have this mad love for the retro times. And watching this short film "Lonely Boy" totally added more to my love for the back in the day.

It's about heartthrob singer Paul Anka. You should see this guy. Smile, style. Clean cut style that I ah-dore. The whole suit & tie shabang. And on casual days a short sleeved button up, tucked in, mind you. When he meets his fans he looks her in the eye, grabs her chin, and wait for it... kisses her on the cheek. He'll put his arm around her shoulder and ask the sobbing teen, "Are you ok?" On top of that he sings like an aaaaaangel. Ok, not an angel, but think Michael Buble. Too bad the documentary showed that he was pretty fucked up & really did the whole entertaining thing for chicks&sex. But if I were a teen back then & I heard "Put Your Head On My Shoulder" then I defintely wouldn't mind being one of those crying, screaming fans. He was dreamy.

Note: was. He has a receding hairline + he grew his hair out in a ponytail. Guh-ross.

I might possibly be swooning over a pre-60s hearthrob because I feel rather neglected this week, but hey. Whateyvs. I think I'll go put on some pearls & play "Put Your Head On My Shoulder" on my laptop. :]

<3 Ing

Team Matsu!

As in Matsuflex, baby! After my short stay in SJ with the sissies I got them hooked onto VH1's Tool Academy. Basically these guys thought they were in some kinda competition for "Mr. Awesome." (Really? They fell for that?) But it turns out their girlfriends set them up on a self-improvement show because they suck at boyfriends. They suck so much that they've cheated. One guy even had a girlfriend switch! Anyway, it's amaaaze & I find it super effective. I'm looking forward to more seasons of T.A. As of this week there are 3 contestants left.

Shawn. His girlfriend set him up only to be replaced by his girlfriend of 5 & a half years. (Sounds familiar -_-) Go Aida! She's fiiierce.Then there's the pipsqueak Josh. The one on the right. HAHA That was mean, sorry.

And our personal fave...Team Matsuflex! Don't care much for his girlfriend. She's a bit catty.

Anyway, eyes on the prize guys!

<3 Ing

i'm feelin' yo styleee....

"...never sacrifice substance for style, but stylish with a golden type smile."-life&debt by blue scholars.
i love blue scholars. and i seriously love this song right now. it definitely describes my style (referring to ing a ding's post below.)
Describe your personal style.
-I am a mix of urban, basics, and classy. I love dressing up with a cardigan/leggings/tunic type outfit. Or dress for comfort with my sweatshirts and uggs. Everything paired with my signature makeup look: MSF NC 44 (yes, I'm dark); Graphblack or Penultimate Eyeliner; Dame or BlushBaby Powder Blush; and Tahitian Sand Beauty Powder. All MAC.
What are your staples in your wardrobe?
-My LeSac dress from AA, all my vnecks, and my cardigans. As well as my random ass black tunic I bought hella long ago from Wet Seal.
What's your signature look?
-Something like a cardigan, tunic, long shirt, and scarf combo paired with straight leg jeans and flats or boots. &of course MAKEUP!
Who is your fashion muse?
-Me. Honest to goodness, I dress for myself. Even if I feel ewww that day I'll dress up to feel better. Or I dress for weather.
Favorite Purchase of All Time.
-My Black Uggs I bought Sophomore year. Yes, three years ago. Even though they're worn down, graying, and all they're still hella comfortable. Best investment ever.
Biggest Splurge?
-I tend to spend a lot on shoes. No, this is not a shoe blog. But I do love my purple and gray freedom fabric dunks, black uggs, and multitude of vans. oh yes, and of course my makeup. The most I've spent on makeup all at once was probably $250+. And I probably walked away with only a handful of items. But I love makeup. Also I spend a lot on hellz, stussy, and MTTM. my bahhhhd.
What's your beauty routine?
-I use cucumber/melon soap for facewash. Then studio fix+ and MSF, blush, powder, and eyeliner for the face. And body cream for my bodaayyyy.
What jewelry do you never take off?
-I always wear my silver hawaiian pendant that has my middle name engraved in it and diamond pendant. Always, Always, Always.
What are you wishing for?
-That's for me and the clock that says 11:11 on it to know.
What are your obssessions?
-I'm really into track jackets, crew necks, and big hair. Call me 90s hiphop, but I just can't stop. Also I love taking boy's clothing (or my brothers, same shizz) and making it girlified. (i.e. 40% off men's stussy crewneck, leggings, and minnetonka boots. yum!)
K done!
Peace, Love, and Hello Kitty Balloons at Bloomie's.
Ange.

this week...

Last night, I went to sleep at 230AM, frustrated as hell. With life, school, everything. You know that feeling when you set standards for yourself but you don't reach it. Or worse, you don't even come close. Well that's how I felt when I went to sleep last night. Nothing has ever come close to how low I felt right last night. Vented to my mom and brother, and went to sleep in hopes that I will wake up feeling better.
I had dreams of callbacks oddly enough. Right before the results were announced I woke up. This happened probably three times the whole night. Needless to say, I couldn't really sleep last night.
Life sucks, right now. I feel overwhelmed I guess. Weirdly enough, full house is on and it's the episode where michelle doesn't get the part of yankee doodle but gets the part of lady liberty instead. Coincidence? I think not. This is gonna be interesting.
Oh and get this, I'm the only freshmen to try out for a lead role. Well, we'll find out later tonight! =/

edit (2/12/09 3:30pm): No roles, nothing. It's all good. I'm a freshmen, I have hella PCNs in my future. I did get casted in four dances though. So nonetheless, I'm still part of PCN. =]

peace, love, and (more) sleep.
Angie.

'Cause we have so many readers...

Sike. But it's ok. I still wanna do this survey. You actually have to be tagged by someone in order to do this survey but people haven't caught on to our fabulosity. :]

Describe your personal style.
I wish I knew. I have amazing ideas in my head but it doesn't come through in my appearance. But I do love mixing vintage with modern.

What are the staples in your wardrobe?
Jackets, even though I feel like I don't have enough. Tight fitting dresses & pencil skirts. And shirts that show off my back. I try -_-

What’s your signature look?
How many times have I worn a pencil skirt/dress, hoodie + leather jacket?

Who is your fashion muse?
I think Vanessa Hudgens is the cutest dresser. Maybe a bit too Boho so mix her up with Lauren Conrad. She's classic.

Favorite purchase of all time?
That's impossible. Don't ask me that.

Biggest splurge?
I don't splurge much. & If I do, it's not really considered a splurge, haha. I'm a cheap-o. If I could, I'd probably buy a handbag.

What’s your beauty routine?
Oh, I'm not picky. Vaseline lotion, Oil of Olay for my face, Cucumber Melon Dove deodorant. Ralph Lauren when I see the bf. Simple stuff, sorry.

What jewelry do you never take off?
I used to always wear my promise ring, I'm just waiting for it back. Nowadays I always wear my Elsa Paretti for Tiffany's "R" necklace, Elsa Paretti for Tiffany's heart pendant bracelet, and my RYAN & INGRID gangster rings. :]

What are you wishing for?
Money. So I can shop.

What are your obsessions?
Vintage lifestyle. I want to go to each era & see how I'd fall in love with him. And what we would wear and do. Sounds like a good movie <3

Maybe a bit more polished, but you go Ashley!

<3 Ingrid

Redic-a-donc Semester

So basically I'm the stupidest student right now coz I was stupid enough to not earn enough credits to pay off tuition with financial aid. So if F.A doesnt take my sob story about why I didn't get my credits then I'm kicked out of SJSU and I have to go back home and go to CSM which really sucks coz I'm meant to be out here.
This semester has been so bi-polar to me. Roomie situation was redic coz we were constantly bickering toward one another until we reached a compromise, however, now Ange and I are thinking something diff coz our landlord told us she has to pay. Me and Jed had tried to work things out but it didnt end up workin out so I cut him loose and it seems to me like he doesnt really care coz he hasnt tried to talk to me at all for the past week or so. I've met so many chill people in my classes, and I even have a HUUGE crush on one of them, but he dont know that. We're chill classmates, but I'd like for things to get on a different level if ya' kno what I mean.
Okay, wanna hear more about that person I'm crushin on? Well, Sisssy Ing knows who I'm talking about coz she saw him in class when she stayed in SJ for the weekend. Sissy Ange only knows stories and seen one picture. If ya wanna see it ya have to ask coz I'm na about to put his pic on here. He and I have had weird encounters. The day I asked him for his number, we literally were walking side by side waiting for someone to talk. I just came out asking his name and we chatted practically all the way to my apartment. The second day we walked together after class, I asked him for his number "for club promotional purposes", haha. I'm just that good. So we've talked through text and sometimes calls like everyday since we exchanged numbers. Hes supa cute. Like really, he makes me wanna be cute everyday. I seriously dress cute just to impress him. Like most girls in class are regular jeans and hoodie or t-shirt, but I'm dressed! Like leggings, nice club lookin shirt and uggs or heels, YES I said heels. It doesnt hurt to look nice for someone. Hopefully he's lookin at you thinking about what you look like that day. =) He makes me really cheesy and I seem sprung offa him, but how can I be if we're not on that level? haha. Well, that's it for now.

<3LaurenNicole.

Diamonds are Forever!

Freshly Tatted. Diamond on my middle finger of my right hand! I always found strength in my hands. I create, draw, sketch, paint. All strong aspects of my personality.
Peace, Love, and New Ink.
Angie.

hella filipino.

I love how no matter where we are we seem to be doing the same thing. The ILA girls are taking pride in their culture and partaking in their school's Pilipino Culture Night. Ingrid all the way in SFC is apart of USF's Barrio. Lauren and I are doing PCN for SJSU. Ahh, this is the reason why we're sisters. Ingrid is dancing, Lauren is singing, and I'm acting! Woooo! Give it up for culture and talent!
More details later.
Peace, Love, and Filipino Pride.
Angie.

Bilingual.

I do not speak the languages of slut or homewrecker. I feel sorry for you if you do. No, I dont. :)

-- Ingrid

Hey Girl Hey.

I haven't legit blogged in awhile, so might as well.
I've been too busy/lazy to blog and my life has been hectic. I just dropped one of my classes because I'm planning on doing a lot of extra curricular stuff and finding a job this semester. You know your girl is keeping it ila than usual on the daily. So life has been crazy ridic. I've been in and out of malls (trying to find a job!), meetings, and classes.

Things to look forward to for myself:
-PCN. please oh please let me be casted. (I really want to do Pilipino Cultural Night as you can tell. like ridicridonc want to do it.)
-Internship. I love the L.I.F.T.E.D. internship.
-English 1B (because my view in class isn't half bad.)
-Math70 cause i just love math that much.
-Getting another job. (please call me back urban decay!)

I'm back in San Jo, and I love it per usual. I just need to readjust in all my new classes and face the fact that I don't know anyone yet. I'm being nicer than usual, cause you know how I do. I hella chop it up with people I don't know. And the guy next to me in my history class was hella sneezing so I gave him my pack of puff tissues. I don't share any classes with people I know, but its just a way to meet new people! OH and all my professors frown upon cell phone and laptop usage. So it feel likes i'm back in high school! ughhhh.
Ok, that's it for now. As for the roommate sitch, let's just say that me and lauren are good to go. Our other roommate on the other hand needs to figure out where she's living. HAH.
Peace, Love, and All of the Above.
Angie.

Kisses never lie.

My ILAs just saved me from a potential emo-ass last week of break. Currently, I'm going through relationship problems. But true love never fails so I'm putting my trust in God & him & we'll see where this goes. From Millbrae Pancake House to Mercy. From huge ass Valleyfair mall to The Clique & Sex&theCity. To relationship talks with L & talking shit with A. From sitting in a Sex & Gender Roles class to yelling at the TV while watching Tool Academy. (Team Matsuflex!) From Jo Koy videos to causing ruckus with E. From teal hair to tats. From crepes&starbucks to Happy Birthday Nala! Then home again. I <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Forever 21 moms. Just saying.

Keepin' it cute.

<3 Ingrid

ila sisstuhs sleepover in sj!

the ila sisstuhs had a sleepover in sj this week! you know we always come in full effect so you know it was poppin'. love always the ila girls.

Sisters for a Reason

I've been in this relationship that you can call a waste of time/shitty. Reason being is because I am never happy with my life with him. I've given up so much for him that he doesnt see the real Lauren Nicole. All he ever sees is negative things. He looks at me or calls me and thinks/says hella negative shiz to me. For almost 2 years, I've gone through the roughest relationship any female would go through. From fights that turn into bruises and cuts to names a female should NEVER be called. The first time a fight broke out like that, I couldn't believe my virgin ears that this person I say "iloveyou" to is saying all these things that breaks a girl down. I thought it was just a phase for him, but it got worse as our days together prolonged. One time, he even got mad at me coz I got a call from a guy that I go to school with and he ended up breaking his hand b'coz he punched my dresser. Fool tried to let his anger out by breaking his hand, what a dummy. Anyways, things are hella rough for me because of school starting and my daddy being in the hospital and to top off the sundae I have the most jerk tool of tool academy as a boyfriend. He's a bigger jerk/asshole than Shawn of T.A. Geez, can you get any more worse than that? [and the guy had two girlfriends, but my tool is the biggest of all] 2 years, and I'm getting fed up from all the shiz hes put me through and is continuing to put me through. He says he's like this because he cant help being selfish when it comes to me. "I told you that I'm selfish when it comes to Lauren Nicole. I cant help but want you to myself." That means, 1) I cant have any friends besides him. 2) He gets mad at me whenever we're apart and at school. 3) He hates when he hears male names come out of my mouth [even if they are a gay friend that he's met] 4) He yells at me or gets angry with me when/if I go out to dinner/meetings/hang outs. 5) I get in trouble if theres other voices in the background when we're talking on the phone. and so on. Now, can you see what I've been going through. I've been living in hell and I've even put up with it. All the ILoveYous never felt real because after those words, something triggers his bi-polar disorder and I'm crying and he doesnt want me to stop coz he keeps making me cry.
My dad's just gone through a BMT and that's hard enough for me to go through, on top of that, school started which makes my life a little harder because I'm more concerned for my fa asmily at this point. My ILA sissuh has been going through some relationship things, so I'm kinda concerned for her too, and we're both supporting each other with our relationships, but my relationship is the worst out of the two, so advise is try to make him relize that youre forreal about him needing to change. I really wanna leave and try to make him miss me and regret treating me like shiz for the past 2 years so I have to leave. All the things hes given me such as my heart shaped three diamond studded gold band ring that I got for my birthday. All the good memories will always be held close to my heart because I feel like hes is the one person I've ever dated that I've felt so many feelings for. Idk how I'm going to be able to deal with it tho..Im keeping my sissuhs close to me coz theyre my cruch for a lifetime.

<3LaurenNicole.

Papa's Transplant x NonVirgin

As of January 21st, my dad has gotten his BMT, bone marrow transplant. When I called him, he sounded better than usual. Hes doing well, but things are still trying to get back into place. His energy level is still low as is his blood count, but only time will tell if the BMT went as planned. Thank God that his own sister was his donor, we are very thankful for that. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts toward my father and his condition.
As of January 22nd, my hair is no longer a virgin =[. First I cut off 10 inches to donate to the Lock of Love Foundation because of my father's condition. Now, my hair is dyed turquoise-ish, but only a thin layer of my hair.

<3LaurenNicole.

Team Blair

Hey guys! I bet no one even remembers me 'cause I barely blog. Whatevs, I've actually been busy! So to catch up... 1. I've dyed my hair. :] 2. I watched the first season of Gossip Girl in 2 days & refused to leave my couch. 3. Ange's 90 yrs old so we celebrated bigtime. 4. I'm partaking in a game that I don't even wanna be apart of. But I play for keeps. 5. I've been out & sleep over in SF almost every week. 6. My brother's mantillion is tomorrow so this week has been hell week. Practices, shirt making, shit talking -- oh what? Haha

Mantillion: (n.) similar to a debutante ball or cotillion but for the opposite sex; crackin'

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm excited for Confessions of a Shopaholic!

Fieeerccee!

Prayers to L & her family! Love you sissy.

<3ingrid

Papa's Hospitalized

So my father has been diagnosed with 2 types of cancer since the summer, and he's going into the hospital tomorrow for a BoneMarrowTransplant. I've held all my tears in until now. As the summer progressed and so did his chemotherapy treatments, I wanted to move out of the house so freakin badly because I couldn't stand the stress in the house. I left the house just before school started, and soon enough I got closer to my father than any of us kids. I used to fight non-stop with my dad, but now it's just trying to keep the peace in the family. My family has gone through so much with this illness that I feel like we've grown stronger as a whole and our bond cannot be broken with the high spirits we have now. In the beginning, it was hard to understand what my father was going through, but now I think we understand just a little bit now. As I attend college at SJSU, I spoke with my father more and more each day until I came home to my family in Millbrae. Before his diagnosis, I tended to bump heads with my father because we are both very stubborn, but after I found out about what he has, I learned how to talk things out and try to mend tears in our family. Now, I'm like the mediator in the family, its ridonc!
Its Wednesday and my father is getting admitted to Stanford Hospital tomorrow morning at 9 AM. Since Sunday, I've been crying about the whole thing because of what's going to happen with my family. Saturnday and Sunday, my father got to see all his closest friends and family, for the last time because he cant be around people for around a year due to the healing process after his BMT. Sunday, he got annointed with healing oil that "they used in Jesus' time to heal the sick". My mom and I started to cry as the priest did the annointing, but that's just females being females =P Tuesday, I was with Babe, and I started crying out of nowhere and he was wondering why I started crying in the first place. I told him what I was feeling and he kept reassuring me that this is for the best, but I felt like some of this was my fault. Of course I shouldnt be feeling this but I do. Idk why, its hard to explain. I've been wanting to cry like this for a long time, but I never found the right time to let it all out. After I finally let it all out, I felt some kind of relief that my father is going to be fine after the transplant. I'm glad that he was lucky enough to spend the holidays with his family and people close to him. I'm just scared, he's nervous, but I'm scared because I never would've thought that my family would go through something that's a lifetime.
I want to thank everyone that is keeping my father in his prayers for a full recovery. God, please watch over my father as he fights this battle against life itself. He needs your guidance and healing power.
<3LaurenNicole.

give us a show, pleasey!

just do it! 'nuff said.

birthdays, photoshop, &mantillys. OH MY!

two days ago (well three technically) was my birthday! and i would just like to say how thankful i am for my ila sisstuhs for surprising me in the morning and basically spoiling me all day. i loved every second of my birthday and i owe you guys HELLA! okay anyways, i'll write about my birthday when i have my pics uploaded.
life is so good right now! it's a relief from school and all. i still take care of my bidness and find myself busy. but at least i have time to chill with everyone and anyone. i lovess it! i've been working on a lot of designs, both for the mantilly and my line. shit's gonna be poppin' that's all i know for sure.
I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS COMING WEEK. mantilly here we go!
Peace, Love, and Mantilly Shizz.
Angie.

Frescas X West Portal

So my daddy wanted to go to a Peruvian place for dinner tonight since he's not going to be able to have these kinds of foods after his BMT (bone marrow transplant). We ended up going to Frescas. West Portal doesn't really bring back great memories since the only memories there are of one person who's name I shant mention.
In the times I went to Mercy, I had a little love with someone. He took me to Frescas on our first "date". We had a great time, but our time soon deminished. Frescas was really the best memory with him coz it was the sweetest memory, all the other ones were just drama, tears and nerves. As I was sitting at the dinner table with my family, I remembered our date, and it was hard to bring back to my mind coz everything about him made me scared for my life. I ordered the prawn sandwich and he ordered some kinda steak, fckn fat ass. He was sweet enough to take his time with me even if he was just on a 30 minute break. He told me it dont matter coz he just wanted to be with me. Our date was cut short coz he had work and I had practice. FCK man, memories really do make you think. Anywayys, I was scared that I'd see him again, there. I was afraid of someone that knew who I was appearing out of nowhere and telling him that I was there. I was just afraid, period. Frescas and West Portal alone makes me scared coz I know that hes there. Fck, hes everywhere!. Dinner happened to be a good one, although I was scared.
Okay, THEE END.

<3LaurenNicole.

yesterday was the 50th post! wooo!

oh yeah another random fact, because i just woke up and my back hurts:

20. I currently sleep in the living room of my house because 1. i'm deconstructing/updating my room so it doesn't look like i'm 12 anymore and 2. because i don't have a tv in my room anymore so i settled for the flatscreen in the living room.

i woke with a backache because the couch is being a BIOTCH. k back to sleep.

Peace, Love, and less than 10 hours till my birthday!
Angie.

because i'm too nice!

Hi! 2009 has proven to be just peachy so far! and it's only been 5days! =] i got a longboard today. they don't sell the padang anymore...so i got the sector 9 cosmic weave longboard! yes...i am happy! that sounds materialistic of me...sorry. let's bring it back, i've been meaning to post a random facts blog. for one thing, because i feel bad when i do it on facebook cause then i would have to tag people. and b. because i have a lot of random facts about me. sound cool? then let's do it!
1. i really like my full first name (Angelou) but it's weird when someone besides my family says it out loud. b/c really everyone just calls me Ang, or Angie.
2. i've been telling people that i'm a REALLY GOOD liar. but i just found out recently that means i'm a good actress. so uhh, i should stop saying that right? yeah? yeah.
3. i love...love, but i've never been in love. i love the concept/symbolism/emotion/word! love can be concrete or an idea. it's just a big question mark that is self defined.
4. my nail broke today and i was ready to shank someone! haha, no really. i've been trying to grow out my nails for the past couple of months or so.
5. i think i have a mild form of A.D.D. only because i have a hard time focusing on one task.
6. i've been craving froyo even though it's crazy freezing outside.
7. i dyed my hair last week. the bottle says it's supposed to be purple, but my hair turned blue. like SUPERMAN blue.
8. i have no eyebrows. well i have small/thin eyebrows. but it sometimes looks like i have none at all.
9. i'm the tannest in my family. like my WHOLE extended family. you would think i was adopted or something. hah.
10. i really like san jose, i'm kinda surprised. i've always been an sfc girl.
11. currently, this is the shortest my hair has been.
12. my room is a mess, and idk when that'll changed. haha.
13. i love surprises, only because i'm nosy and think no one can actually surprise me.
14. i've been at my job currently for almost three years! and for some reason i'm having a hard time finding a job closer to school.
15. i always keep my bart ticket in my back right pocket. otherwise there's never anything in that pocket. it must be there for a reason right?
16. i talk shit, but i pull knowledge out of my ass. somehow my lines were crossed internally.
17. i'm excited/ready for my next tattoo. it's gonna be AMAZING!
18. i made a bandana out of felt yesterday at work! =]
19. 19? OH YEAH i'm turning 19 in two days!

that's it for now. i love 2009 so far...&i'm ready for wednesday! i love my ila sisstuhs, and i can't wait to see em soon!
Peace, Love, and Hello Kitty Earmuffs.
Angie.

just cause

playing with my new tablet (it's name is sofa king) and my new black macbook (it's name is houndstooth) = loveee!
AHH, i love playing with my new toys. keep it ila than y'average in 2009 homies!
peace, love, and all of the above.
Angie.