Jet-setta!

Currently I'm sick 'cause I've been so out & about. Just two weeks ago was Barrio hell week. Then two shows Friday & Saturday night - where L&A watched me perform :]Then the last week was incredibly pointless & everyone in Barrio got sick - including me! Saturday was the Hyphen cover shoot with my Tito Aris (Winner of Mr. Hyphen '08), Lola Mommy, & Lola Mamang - my 104 year old diva great grandmother. We posed on a vespa & how it was shot made it seem like we were all packed onto it. You know us Asians, always trying to fit people onto on thing or place. :] It was super fun but I'm afraid my five-head was exposed 'cause of the fan which simulated "wind". Then that night I flew off to Vegas! I got super sick in Vegas, I think I was delirious. Alls I remember was eating clam chowder, a Shirley Temple, then taking Tylenol. Haha! Now I'm back getting ready for the epic trip - ILA IN LA! They ain't ready for us!

<33 Ing

Weekend Hi-light

My little sister had a basketball game at CYO Serramonte Del Rey today playing against OLM. I met this one guy at the same gym and same opponent, his sister's team, a year before. (shit its been a year) anyway, I found out my sister was playing OLM and immediately hit up our mutual friends tryna find out if he was going to be there. I was scared out of my mind driving there tryna figure out an escape route if he tried doing anything to me. See, we have a bad past. I was tryna get with his friend; got close to his girlfriend; and then he threatened me when he found out I was coo with his girl. Things just went sour. Months pass by and I havent spoken to him since he threatened me and I never would've fathomed that he would be at the same game as me. I been wanting to mend peace with him, since he is a Marine serving our country and you'd think he'd wanna be peaceful. But, na he dont wanna. I'm coo with whatever just as long as I'm alive.
I walk into the gym and the first person I see, yup you guessed it, is HIM. omg my heart just dropped from there. I was so fckn terrified for my life. I hit up my homeboys tellin them he was there and they reassured me that he wouldnt do anything coz hes na gna make anything public. During the game, I tried stayin calm, but my nerves kept the best of me. I kept talkina my homeboys with them tryna calm me down; for the most part that worked. The game went about 40 minutes long and the whole time his little fckn sister kept doggin me like I was the enemy. Every time she came to take out the ball, I get the eye, and then I look in his direction and see him givin me the eye. I'm like "this ngg really trained his little sister to do that to me and she dont know me?!" but that was whatever coz Knights killed the Bulldogs today 10-1 nagg! lol. anyway, the game was over and I was tryna cut as quick as possible but my sister being the slow one she is took her sweet time. Soon as I know it, I dont see him anywhere; he really just cut hella quick. I was glad that he had left and that I was alive coz real talk, i was scared for my freakin life. I had sent "im sorrys" and "iloveyous" and "thank yous" to all my friends that I wanted to talk to. I really thought I was about to die! lmao. but I'm safe now, and I'm happy. okay thats the hi-light before I go to LA/Disneyland! yayy
ILA Sissuhs in Disneyland for Spring Break bro!

<3LaurenNicole.

Excited

So our FIRST College Spring Break is here! yayy. ILA Sissys are going to rip up Disneyland with our Fierce selves; March 25-28th. I am hella excited: one, its our first spring break together as ILA sissys; two, I'm away from the hectic life and relaxing with the best friends a female could have; three, ITS DISNEYLAND!

I'm hella sprung. Yes, the <3 kind of sprung. Yes, the guy sprung. Yes, i hella like him. Yes, its early, but I have hopes. No, I'm not going to name him because I found out that blasting names- for me at least- isn't the best idea because it brings me bad luck. Nuff said.

ILA in Disneyland!!!

<3LaurenNicole.

Make My Day.

I've been wanting to do this one, but I feel rude when I tag people to do it so I posted it here. The results are kinda funny:

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Anti-Matter - N.E.R.D.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Chasing Pavements - Adele. (uhm, hella true.)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kick, Push - Lupe Fiasco. (again, hella true.)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Flashing Lights - Kanye West.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE??
See You Again - Miley Cyrus. (don't make fun of me, it's catchy!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Set Me Free - John Legend. (HAH!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Why Does She Stay? - Ne-yo. (OH NO! haha.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Lie to Me - Ne-yo.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Break My Heart - Common.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Gold Watch - Lupe Fiasco. (lauren loves gold; and inga has a gold watch! haha.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Glory - Kanye West.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
With You - Chris Brown. (that's cute...i guess.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It Might Be You - Kai

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sex 4 Suga - Common (HAHAHAH!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Queen and I - Gym Class Heroes. (uh, I hope not.)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Take You There - Musiq Soulchild.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Only Human - Jason Mraz. (good one.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Everybody Knows - John Legend.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I Love, You Love - John Legend.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Coyotes- Jason Mraz. (OH NO!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Big Branch - M.I.A. (hahaha.)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Stronger - Kanye West.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Life and Debt - Blue Scholars (OH NO!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Cupid's Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Teach Me - Musiq Soulchild.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Laugh About It - N.E.R.D.

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Black Mags - The Cool Kids.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The Light - Common.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Yeah You - N.E.R.D.

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Evening Chai - Blue Scholars.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Make My Day - Common.

Things to look foward to: USF Barrio Fiesta tonight. Inga's dancing!; Spring Break; First run through on Sunday; HVYRSNL interview; and lifeeee. duh.
Things I love (currently): Chicken katsu; Coffee runs after class; Inspiration, always.; Ballistic dancing; and lifee!

Peace, Love, and Bruised Knees.
Ange.

ILA + Disneyland = !!!

March 25-28th
It's gonna be epic

<3 ILA

love, love, love.

this one goes out to sisstuh ingrid, cause we all know if she could she would live in the 50s where rock&roll was king, and everyone got down at the local sock hop. this site reminds me of those sites we used to go to in 5th grade and make electronic paper dolls that were little thugettes with baggy pants and tube tops. this one is so much better and its divided in ERAS! ahh, lovely! you're never too old to play with paper dolls. how do you think young aspiring fashion designers got their start? paper dolls and barbies duh. love, love, love!
peace, love, and era-fabulous paper dolls.
ange.

Life Update =)

So uh, since I'm like never on this anymore I thought I should do an update about muah =)
So currently, I'm involved in SJSU's PCN this year. woot woot. Singing in choir, which is really odd since I'm like the shyest of the bunch. I really am tho. Like, I don't just bust out singing for you like people want me to. Sorry. Uh, things in life are really hard for me with family (papa's condition), school/PCN, boys. ew, ugh. that makes me sad.

Fam-lay

I love my family to death, but sometimes I need to get away and I feel like my friends are my getaway trip. Things around the house are so tough for me to man up about. My dad is home, went home just weeks after his transplant and for that I am very thankful because he needed to be home. I saw him twice when he was in the hospital and both times I could not bear seeing him like that. Going home is the best feeling in the world 'coz I know that my dad misses me being home every day like I was in hs. Its hard on me, especially, because I am not used to seeing my dad everyday like the rest of my family. I start crying inside whenever I look at my dad because he's not the dad I remember. He looks so much more different from when he started all his treatment. ='( I seriously cannot look at him in the eye anymore because its too hard on my heart. I know that its bad saying that but that's how I feel inside. When I'm done talking to my dad, I go into another room or outside the house and start crying. Its really that tough for me to handle. When I cry, the only person that knows and hears my tears and sniffles is Jed. Hes my life when I'm down because he knows how to make me smile and think differently. There has been a handful of times that I felt like I was going to burst out in tears in front of my dad, but I had to suck it up and wait for our conversation to end. I really do cry tho. My mom doesnt even know that I'm crying about this. I usually try to stop crying, but sometimes I wish that G didnt put my family through all this sh*t. I know that it's not good putting all this shizz on my shoulders but I feel like since Im away from the family at school, I have the most responsibility. I shouldn't feel like that but I do. Enough of that, I'm starting to tear.

School/PCN

Holy shizz, school is so tough this semester because I have so much pressure from the CSU system to pass all these remedial courses =/ I have the most amazing schedule coz I made it like that. haha. PCN is so much fun. I love the people in it. Althought it drives me craaazy that I cannot speak tagalog at all, I suck it up and sing the songs in tagalog. Most of them songs are in our native language, and the only song I can actually get down is Sha La La. lmao.

Boys aka Jed

The one person who makes me crazy also makes me happy. There are so many times that I've talked about this guy, but a break up isnt going to stop me. Hes been there for me through thick and thin, and he really doesn't want to just be friends. I dont know how many times I stress that I want to be with him but only when he's changed his way of thinking about me. I know that he wants to be with me but the way he thinks of me and treats me does not show what so ever that he wants to be with me coz its all wrong. Im not going to go into detail about that. Theres just so much that I ask of him that I know for a fact that he can do, but he refuses to take my words to heart. Yes, I'm still keeping in touch with him, and we see eachother from time to time, but I dont intend on being his gf until he proves to me that he's changed. There are things that tell me he's "changing" but then those things just go away and the tables turn completely. Recently, we spent a weekend together and it was amazing. Everything was perfect until he left, and he always leaves me on a sour note "because he hates saying goodbye to me because he 'knows' its the last time hes going to see me in 'awhile'". I'm currently just friends with the guy, but I am still interested in staying single.

Okayy, that's an update. Love you, ILA sissuhs.

<3LaurenNicole.

i'm excited...

...for life. does that make sense? i'm excited for life in general. i'm 19, i'm just starting! there's so many things to look forward to. and the simple things in life have been keeping me happy. i honestly want to work on myself as a person this year and better myself as a person, friend, whatever to prepare me for whatever in the future. i don't know where i want to go or what i want to do in life. which is weird, because i thought i always did, but i don't. i love trying different things and immersing myself in everything. i wanna travel the world, fly to different lands, say i've done it all now i gotta teach it all. i know everyone feels me on this. i mean, growing up is so much fun. just enjoy it! when people tell me "oh you're so young, don't waste it!" i'm like "damn straight, i'm not planning on it!" or when people say "oh you're getting old!" well guess what, "i still have some growing to do!" sorry i just needed to rant. LIFE IS GOOD. you just need to realize that it's good. don't reflect on the negative; no drama; dispose of bad vibes. and you're good to go! it's just good advice for everybody to live by. i need to get in touch with my inner philospher every now and then.
peace, love, and positive thinking.
ange.